Today’s message:
It’s one trick, Christina, to manifest exactly what you want.
It’s another to bring about something even better.
Leave the door open,
The Universe
I had a brillant idea to start an online magazine a few months ago. I was working for a traditional family-themed magazine, and figured I could get my fix of a career by combining my love for social media with my work experience, and develop my own online magazine. Unlike blogging–where you can have hundreds of moms blogging about the exact same thing, each successful in their own way–having four websites in a 10-mile radius that offer the exact same things is, well, overkill.
People will likely check out one, maybe two, of the websites to see what’s going on in the area. But four? No. Why check four online community calendars when they all have the exact same events? Why visit four different websites when they all talk about the same businesses?
Had I known that within six months of pouring my energy into such a project I’d simply be one of the four, I would never have gotten involved. My personality is not one to settle for “fitting in.” I like to stand out. Being 1 of 4 isn’t good enough for me.
Yesterday I was feeling very raw when I discovered one of these four websites. It was so much better than what I sought out to do–and has a huge backing to support it because it is the new-and-improved website for the traditional magazine I was writing for; I simply can not compete. I love competition, but I am a big sore loser. It really threw a wrench into my day, and I know I took out my feelings of anger and emptiness on everyone in my life.
I just feel like I was finally finding something to do, something to be proud of building all on my own. Something that was bringing in some money, something that was keeping me mentally busy. I kept telling myself, “if this works out, it’ll be perfect!”
I went to bed thinking I had failed–I don’t like to fail.
But then I got that message this morning and realized that maybe, maybe, I am onto something and I should not close all of my doors just yet.
The thing is, I don’t know what I am onto?
And if there is anything I hate more than losing, it’s waiting…
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i get my messages from the Universe and love them. One thing I know to be true, is the most successful people keep going right when they are about to give up. I have that bad habit of giving up when things aren’t going my way…but when you pass through those doors, brilliant things happen.
If this is something that you really enjoy doing, something that makes you happy, gives you some sort of fulfillment…then I would keep at it. You never know where it may lead you. Just because you aren’t number 1 at it right now, doesn’t mean that you won’t be.
Stick with it if it means something to you.
Keep up the good work, don’t let it go. If you love it then do it and keep doing it, because you don’t know what it will lead to and it might just surprise you. If you dont enjoy it then I might have other advice. I liked your snap thing, I am sorry it was a busy weekend and we couldn’t participate, life is nuts!!!
Congrats on being 1-4 and here’s to hopeing for even better!
The Buzz, Brandy
I am right with you. Patience is not my strong point. Sometimes I want it and want it now.
The world needs people like you who create and persevere. AFter all, without creativity and perseverance, what would the world be?
Uh…totally! You “are” onto something, you’ve just not yet nailed it…but you will, I can tell. Can’t you? Don’t you just have that “feeling”? When it hits you, it’ll be like a ton of bricks – so watch out, but watch for it
I say stick with it – give what the other sites don’t have whether that be the personal experience of being there at the events or just more personal posts mixed in with event information. If it was giving you so much – I say stick with it.