I threw myself a pity-party yesterday. A good one. There was weeping, and sobbing. There was no showering for the entire day. There was total neglect of housework and other obligations. There was even loads of high-calorie treats like Molten Lava cakes and handfuls of Skittles.
Boy can I through a good party!
Alright, I’m exaggerating once again but you get my point {the Molten Lava cake is true, though!}. It was during this pity-party that I had a super mega-watt lightbulb moment.
Because I have a bad habit of overusing analogies to make my point, I’m compelled to make this comparison. One of the number one rules of dieting is that you should always eat on a salad plate. If it doesn’t fit, you simply don’t eat it. Bigger plate = more calories.
Why do I feel the need to fill my “plate” with so much stuff? Is it because if there is an empty spot on the “plate,” I won’t know how to just be? Is it because I’m scared to have nothing to do? Or scared to address the real things on that “plate?” Why does there always need to be some thing – a thought, a worry, a project, a job? I see that empty spot and I am so quick to fill it with something superficial, instead of just freeing up some space in my life.
Space to just “be” a wife, a mom, a daughter, a friend. Space to enjoy the many, many things I have been blessed with. Space to enjoy the freedom of not having to work, not having to obsess or worry, not having to struggle, or not having to be lonely.
Gives me some things to think about…
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It makes me think of a quote by Virinia Woolf. “No need to hurry. No need to sparkle. No need to be anyone but oneself.”
Kristy recently posted..And then I panicked
I find myself doing the same thing. I think (big stress on that word) that it stems from my issues of not measuring up to all my very active mother friends. I feel like I just don’t do enough, although I have a toddler and they have 3-4 kids ranging from 8-16.
I agree with taking time to enjoy who and what we are to the fullest.
Well, I’d like to say that I don’t suffer from this problem but you know I do! I recently gave up two committments and it felt good to do it! However, they were quickly replaced by other things.
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Oh. Em. Gee. Yesssss….. Why do we do this to ourselves? Why? I’ve been having a bit of a pity party here too for similar reasons. Trying to “do it all” for so long and in this process I forgot about “me”. I’ve decided to slow down as well, use a salad plate if you will, and reeeeeeally find again my “authentic self” before my cheese totally slides off my cracker. Let’s figure this out together, shall we?
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