I’ve been seeing a therapist for the past ten years. She’s wonderful. She’s been there for me during times I really needed her–like when I got totally depressed after I had my daughter–and there for me even during the times where I sat in my car in the parking lot before appointments wondering what I even had to talk about with her. There’s been years where I never went more than two weeks without seeing her, and there’s been years where I cancelled more appointments than I actually made it to. She’s been a constant in my life these past ten years and she knows me better than most people do.
Lately, since I’ve been “better” {meaning, not obsessing over things likes what-if’s}, her and I have been making some deep progress. I recently had one of those sessions where I sat back and thought about how far I’ve come. Six years ago, I was at the top of my game–loving life in my 20′s with a new hubby, new baby, and wonderful little world. Celebrating the holidays as a parent was more joyous than any other year before, even though my son was only 6 months old. Three years ago, the holidays were debilitating–I may not have shown it on the outside, but inside I was a hot mess. I was mourning the loss of my father-in-law, the very unexpected death of a young mom whom I knew {with kids the same age as my own}, and severely depressed because of it. I could barely eat. I didn’t want to be photographed with my children out of fear that it would be my final picture with them. I was miserable. This year, I have crossed the bridge into my 30′s, and have found a nice little piece of the world to call my own complete with a healthy family, and friends that are blessings.
This hasn’t been a perfect year, yet I am leaving the imperfections behind me. I am learning that life is not perfect, it’s what you make it. We’ve all know the saying, “when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.” It’s so true. Life will constantly throw lemons at you time and time again but it’s what you do with them that makes your moment joyous or debilitating.
I really hope 2011 is a very boring and calm year. I hope that after dealing with the roller coaster ride called my 20′s that I can enjoy a year filled with peace, and calm–so I can enjoy some of the things {and people} I wished away so quickly for the sake of just getting by when times weren’t so great. I stand firm on the fact that I don’t care to make any resolutions, but I do intend of spending more quality time with friends & family, getting away alone with DaddyMac for a night or two, and even possibly taking a short vacation with my children.
Enjoy the holidays with your loved ones! Merry Christmas ~ from our family to yours!
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Such a wonderful, honest post. Here’s to making lots of lemonade in 2011!
Merry Christmas
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Such beautiful children with such an obviously beautiful relationship with each other!
Yep, here’s to lemonade! You can always work with what you’ve got to make life sweet — even when you’ve been handed a cup of bitterness. This is something I continually try to remind myself.
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to you too!
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I love this. I have wanted therapy for years, but have constantly found something else to occupy my time (not that the Crazies aren’t enough). I just never thought my problems were “bad enough,” but it would be nice to have someone who knew me when things weren’t so bad so that when they do get bad, they really know what they’re working on. Holy run on sentence!
I wish for you boredom in 2011…it’s so much better than rollercoasters sometimes!
aww c-mon girl that’s right 30s rock! Loved the pics of the kids!!! I too hope this year is boring and calm. It’s our last year before preschool starts (oh my!) Hope you’ll pop by and check out my Christmas posting.
Oh and PS for what it’s worth, my Mom has been gone for over 18 years now. She too passed away quickly (with no warning). It does get easier. Her legacy lives on in the stories I share. My Mr. (hubby) never knew her. Treasured memories dear one, treasured memories. Blaaah I actually missed my exit on the highway yesterday on the way to the market with the kids and rolled the car b/c I was zoned out on some of those memories. Whew it was a close one once I snapped back and realized where I was (oh my!) Alas we made it safely on our detoured route. Still the memory was grand and the kids had no idea mom made an ops.
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This post was refreshing to read. Something about it just snagged my soul and twisted it up a bit. Life is all about throwing lemons at you, it really truly is. But if we embrace those thrown lemons and try to grow from the trial, we come out on top. We come out a different, better person and that is what life is all about…. growing. I’ve always had your button on my blog but haven’t been by much. I will be coming back more often
Happy New Year!!!
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